secret admirer

He is someone that lives near you. You know his laugh, the way his smile and the smell of his body.

You like him.
Yes, you do.
But, deep down inside of you, you know that no matter how hard you try, he still someone that out of your reach.

So then you play this game: stalk on him.
Your work day will started by turn-on your PC and open his FB account so you'll know his life or his day going. You check his recent status, you check his new wall, you check his new photo upload and even you open his photo album whenever you missed him.

You start to get obesses on him, and it's scared me a lot.

You said that I don't know what it fells like for having secret love. Well, guess what? I've been there and done that. I know exactly what it's like to love someone that much, while all I can do is see him passing by from faraway. I know how it's hurt when you love someone but he doesn't love you back.

I know all that things, dear. I recognize your pain. You are not the one who feel paralize because this stupid love.

I had once and I think, everybody have.

I have no suggestion for you. I'm gonna just sit down here, hearing you talking about him.

One day you'll get bore of this sick love and choose to leave him. By that time, I'll make a tost for you and enjoying a glass of wine with you.